Losing My Christmas Spirit...Humbug!!!

People always associated Christmas with miracles, fun and all the good stuff. Making plans with your family and friends. What if you get a very lousy christmas, like i did..

Well, the Christmas eve is fine, like every other christmas that i had for the last 25 years. But the christmas morning, everything starts going down the hill...the car brokedown, my brother got busy finding a mechanic to check on the car, the house are crowded with children screaming and ranting, change our plans to visit my father's family, spending almost a million on the car (Damn that car!! Wish i could sold you out!!) and sadly i have to cut off my holiday budget, means no more shopping or traveling anywhere untill end of January. It didn't felt like Christmas at all.

So there goes my Christmas spirit. Merry UnChristmas.

Pictures Of My Life part 1...

   

 

Just a reminder that sometimes women are harsh with each other. If in any situation you see a women with a weird taste of clothes or hairstyle or just plain awkward, please don't start dissing or mocking because it takes a lot of courage just to be yourself in front of people whose idea of a beautiful women is judge by the media.

Soo Wrong.

My Kind of Self Gratitude

The curly hair. Rarely been touched nor change by any hairstylist these days, once a hairstylist told me straight hair is more appealing. I don't want to be appealing, i want to be me and proudly say i don't have any split ends.

The body. Being blessed with a tiny body, it's my mom's heritage and i couldn't ask for more.

The feet. Slightly unpretty as the cost of to many walking and running after my late night bus after works. I don't mind, i love walking, it's a bit like therapy.

My Cheesiness on Asian Male Actors

Recently i just watched Ninja Assassin, it's pretty great for a hollywood movie starred by asian lead actors. And i thought, is this kind of a trend we'll looking at? are they're gonna be another good role like this for asian leading actors?. In the mean time, i have a confession to make, i never seem to reveal that i secretly had a crush on asian male actors, i guess i'm cheesy after all...here's the list...

1. Sung Kang

He played one of the coolest character, Han, in Fast and Furious : Tokyo Drift, after that i can't stop watching his movies and few of them are Sundance Film Festival material, such as Better Luck Tomorrow, The Motel, and Finishing the Game. Not just an actor he also a Restaurateur, he own an asian fusion restaurant, Saketini, in LA and he's a blogger too.

2. Ananda Everingham

He's from Laotian and Australian parents. People might know him from The Shutter, movie that i will never watch, but when i watch him in The Leap Years, my jaw dropping to the floor (sorry, over reacted) when i seen him acting as Jeremy Harvey, the object of a woman's love proposal.

3. Daniel Henney

He's the Agent Zero from X Men's Origins: Wolverine. He's a model. He's half Korean. He's good looking. He's like the asian male version of Giselle Bundchen. That's it. I said it all.

4. John Cho

He's just a party guy in American Pie, then as a student who got killed at Better Luck Tomorrow and evolved into Hikaru Sulu on Startrek. Trekkie wave to John Cho.






I didn't feel like picking 5 male so i stop at 4...which means i still looking around for amazing looking asian male out there...^_^

Blogs that get me through every day

1.  You Offend Me You Offend My Family
    
I gotta say thank God i found this blog, it's funny, honest and very real. This group of Asian American filmmakers, writers and actors are amazingly great bloggers, i've been hooked up by the way they tell their stories and everything on their minds. These offenders made me feel weird and lucky to be asian. I have to say that my favourite offenders are Phillip with his weird dates stories and how to survive guide and Sung with his poop obsessions.

2.  The Rockstar Diaries

This couple, Naomi and Josh, is rockstar indeed. I'm amaze by their amazing photographs, Naomi's little letters and their passion for food. I love the way they're embrace their life. My constantly everyday must read.

3.  Garance Dore

The most inspiring fashion blog, her fashion illustrations and photographs are my everyday excitement.

4.  Color Me Katie

This blog is where i go to when i'm sick and felt like the world is turning grey. Her colorful blog and her creative thinking making me instantly happy, especially her improv everywhere project.

Sometimes it feels good to be alone in a silent room.

photo from here

It started when my TV and DVD broken at the same time then i have to be creative finding things to do beside browsing, blogging and read my -feels like endless- Anna Karenina novel.

Then, i thought of what ancient people would do without TV, DVD, Laptop and every electronic things man ever made to end the dullness of living in crazy town?!? Since a week ago i tried some kind of a new habit, before i sleep i would just stay in my bed enjoying the silence in my room, it's pretty easy cause i'm always had a hard time to fell asleep. And you know what i found...being alone at one particular time is one hell of a therapy to just look at your life without all the hustle bustle, without people's opinion to hear, without people sometimes judgemental looks, just yourself saying things in your head and heart. You might have a big family, lots of friends and lovely spouse, but sometimes all you need is to be with yourself.

And it pretty much saves me from everyday media and

gossip consumption that i'm very tired to hear and see, feels relieving.

I'm breathing my fresh air of silence now.

Like mike..i could be like mike...

Don't you just love Youtube?!...any way i just found my my favorite commercial in the 90's. It's Gatorade commercial featuring Michael Jordan. Love the song...

..Sometimes i wish that he is me, you got to see that's how i dream to be...

The Last Samurai seems comedic to me....

I have this weird habit of watching movie reruns, if i already watch it i'll be glad to watch it again.

Two days ago, it's The Last Samurai that i watch again, i remember watching this movie when i still in college, since i'm in japanese language major watching this movie seems important. And i remember how my friends cry when Ken Watanabe's character died (i didn't cry,since i have an issue for not being sensitive), it was a very sad scene but the thing that really bug me is i can't really believe why Tom Cruise is the Last Samurai. It seems very comedic to me, because i've learn that japanese have a very big pride about their nation and it's just unbelievable that they let this western short guy to lead and actually stay with the wife of a japanese samurai that he killed.

And i'm glad that this movie didn't get really big in Oscar and the only one that get the nomination is Ken Watanabe. This movie pretty much depicted how the western see us all asians and i hope it changed pretty soon. But in the end it's all about Hollwood and money, imagine if no Tom Cruise in this movie, i don't think it will get Oscar nod.

Funeral Partee...

So yesterday i read this post from blog You Offend Me You Offend My Family about dreaming of funeral party, i quote "I figured a wedding was possible, but a funeral was a DONE DEAL!".

and then last night i started to think what kind of funeral i want to have, it doesn't mean that i wanted to die..i just want to leave the world with a Bang and so my siblings and friends won't confused about what i want for my own funeral. Here goes....

1. Since i thought of funeral party is like my last birthday, after the bla-bla-bla at the church, i want a big party at the beach, lombok will be great, and each of my friends and family have to say something about me that's funny, not a sad story but the funny moments i've spent with them.
2. Bring a dj or band (please, hire a very good band not the cheesy one). Everybody have to dance, i mean every single person..if you can't stand up please at least shake your ass or shoulder on your seat. Make sure no crappy or sad songs about being dead, it's the afterlife i'm in.
3. Free flow drinks and food, for food i would make everyone eat anykind of pasta ever made, because i love pasta...i know pasta is carbo-loaded but never think about calories on my funeral.
4. Everybody have to swim, we're on the beach for christ sake...at least get your shirt wet.
5. For my dead body, please Don't make me wear white dressses, just put some flip-flop on my feet, a cool t-shirt and my pair of great jeans, i wanna look relax when i had a conversation with G-O-D.
6. Buried me in the same block as my dad at the cemetery, i have a lot to talk about with him.
7. Don't forget to post about my death on my Tumblr and Blogger, some of them are my friend in disguise.

In the Pattisserie..

I've been eating out a lot lately...one of my newest found was this little pattisserie, their peach-like flavoured frozen yogurt is not really the best but i like their lasagna although the size is a little bit too small for me whose pretty much very hungry at the time.

And they have this menu of two tray with selections of mini cakes for tea party which i wanted so bad but there's only two of us and i don't think there's plenty room left on our stomach for those pretty mini cakes.

this lasagna look big cause i take it in a very close range.

It's been a weird day, so i listen to...

Stay Golden - Au Revoir Simone

I had an unbelievable conversation with a stranger today. He made me believe in things that's very unnatural to me, wonder why he choose to talk to me...??