Scrambling Around the House and Found...

When i found this pictures bundled up on my mother's bedroom i just can't wait scrambling and taking pictures of it, instead of just scan it and put it here.

...i love the fact that my family loves to take pictures and collect it, i just find out that we have tons of old pictures.

...My sister is very cute when she's a baby, the only thing left now is her chubby cheeks, she might killed me for saying it to the world and her husband should seen this.

...I love my little brother smile, he's very nosy and couldn't sit still we got to keep an eye on him everytime.

...I love that green dress i wear, i look like Oscar from Sesame Street with my curly hair like that.

...And i love my cool parents along with my dad green car.

We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together

(Erma Bombeck)

Missin' the 90s

I'm proud to say that i grew up in the '90s, some of the best adventure in my life happens in this decade. Being a teen in the 90s is pretty exciting cause this decade provide the most influential teen angst culture, who didn't know Nirvana's song Smells Like Teen Spirit ? (if there's somebody that didn't know, i bet they live in the cave..) or Beverly Hills 90210 ? (just gotta say the new version series aired now are sucks..).

So, i've made list of memorable things i found about the 90's..here goes.

- No cellphone required, parents or anyone who's annoying couldn't track where i go.

- When apple is simple. No Iphone, Ipod, Ipad or whatsoever.

- When MTV is still music television not stupid reality show channel.

- When i can watch good quality local and international sitcom and game show everyday  after school.

- Michael Jackson, Shannon Hoon and Kurt Cobain still alive, Britney Spears still a virgin. 

- I can act cheesy by listening to lots of boybands.

- Watching the first extreme gossip show with really bad video, all i can see is the bushes in front of a celebrity houses.

- Michael Jordan at his best and his retirement.

- 1998 Reformation. The biggest riot in my country, not that i am happy with it.

that's all, still reviewing my brain for other memorable events back then...i'm getting old.

 

Lost in Norwegian Wood..

I've never been this worked up reading a fiction, this book is totally blew me away. I am so curious to finish it, i bring it everywhere i go. Now, that i already finish it, i'm losing words. Every characters is so deep and intense, i started to believe that these people is real and how their conversation with each other are very natural.

I have to say i found bits and pieces of my self in every characters, that's why i intensely curious to find out how they deal with problems or people that coming right at them. It's crazy how i feel the same way as Toru when he realize that he's never been open enough to the people he loves, i've made walls like that too in real life. The amount of death, sex and suicide's theme are not portrayed in a strange way but most likely as a part of their life, it circled around them, making them feel weak and fragile everytime. It became undeniable memories that they couldn't get rid off.

People have their own reasons for dying. It might look simple, but it never is. It's just like a rock. What's above ground is only a small part of it. But if you start pulling, it keeps coming and coming. The human mind dwells deep in darkness. Only the person himself knows the real reason, and maybe not even then.

(Haruki Murakami)

Sad In A Beautiful Way...

That's the way i feel hearing this song. Currently Chris Botti's CD is the best weapon i could find to make me fell asleep, but always after this first track called Italia that featured Andrea Bocelli's amazing voice. I could just cry for no reason just by hearing this song, i don't even know the lyric means (of course i don't, it's in italian), but i found the translation and it is beautiful.

E' passione forte che mi fa soffrire per amore

Ogni volta che io mi allontano so

che noi ci apparteniamo ancora un po' di più.

It's strong passion that makes me suffer for love

Each time I go away I know

that we belong to each other a little more.

La strada dove io bambino resterò

Dentro a questi sogni di musica

Libero di vivere la vita che vorrei.

The way I'll always stay (be) a child

Inside these dreams about music

Free to live the life that I want.

La mia musica è per te. immenso amore mio

questa melodia nasce dentro me sempre più

la nostalgia che ho di te amore e dolce terra mia.

My music is for you great love of mine

this song makes me feel more and more

the nostalgia I have for you beloved and sweet land (country) of mine.