For the first time in my life,

 I don't know what i want 

I have no clue or even a hint about what i am going to do next.

 I'm not lost but i think i need to feel content about my life.

 It's sad to say, I'm 26 and still figuring out.

(hopefully, it's just my PMS talking and i would feel content next week) 

I Want Joni Mitchell Kind of Morning.

Joni Mitchell - Chelsea Morning

I want traffic ringing up like christmas bells and

rapping up like pipes and drums.

I want pigeons fly.

I want milk and toast and honey and

a bowl of oranges.

I want the sun poured in like a butterscotch.

Parts of my dream house

Years ago,

my red skirt school uniform always got messed up with all the chalk's dust.

Now,

I want a fridge covered with chalkboard to messed up with.

photo from here